It’s been awhile since I’ve seen your face or heard your voice.
It’s been months since I’ve woken up to a “good morning beautiful text” and fallen asleep on the phone, while u went on making false promises about our future together.
You didn’t see me the way I saw myself-
You listened…
You cared …
You put on an act…
The master of your own selfish game.
I put our playlist on repeat and dance around the room,
In your favourite red dress,
Letting the sweet melodies fill my mind with memories of you.
It’s funny to think I stood by you even through the bad,
And now you’ve moved on, telling her about what we once had.
Does your mom still ask about me?
Did you eat today?
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Now I’m stuck sending you one text a time,
I know you’re by your phone,
So why won’t you hit my line?
We talked more when you were Intoxicated;
Inebriated,
Left me wondering about the extent of your sober thoughts.
You did me wrong but it felt right,
I should have left but I was tied down by you-
The chains, tight.
I screwed around and got attached to you,
Maybe that’s why, the sky seems so dark and blue.
I’m doing things we used to do hoping I’ll run Into you.
The stars that once lit the night sky we met beneath,
A dull reminder of you and me.
You said you needed love,
and claimed you wanted me,
But your actions spoke volumes;
Much louder than your words.
It’s 5:30 am, and I’m still not over you.
Summary:
The poem itself touches on subjects of heartbreak and teenage love. It guides the reader through the late night thoughts one may stumble across questioning their past relationship. The individual is reminiscent of their past relationship yet still holds feelings of resentment. I have written this poem primarily as a free verse poem with a few rhyming schemes to create a sense of cohesiveness between the ideas. I wanted to be able to get the true emotions of dying love across and the use of free verse allows the internal confusion associated with heartbreak, to be more prominent throughout the piece. The poem allows potential readers to relate in a variety of ways. I had drawn inspiration for this poem from many of my favourite pieces of music recently, and have incorporated a few lyrics within the piece from artists such as Summer Walker, Giveon and Ali Gatie as many of their songs resonate with the ideas represented in the poem, and when combined allow a feeling of musicality which is what I was striving for. The use of lines from specific pieces of music allow for a deeper meaning and bring the emotions to life.